I'm sorry.. I'm sorry for ignoring you and putting you in a drawer I'm sorry for hushing you with a lie of something is more urgent I'm sorry for taking the lead instead of letting you slip in and glow I'm sorry for swallowing you down deep, instead of letting your greatest medicine shine out I'm sorry for not comforting you when you had your tantrums of passion and Truth I'm sorry for looking through the false lens of, "someone else can do it better." I'm sorry for filling up quiet space with noise instead of listening to your voice of power I'm sorry for reaching for the distraction to cover up your brilliance while the old records circled I'm sorry for not being the greatest receiver of You by taking your hand, pulling you in close and sitting with you saying: " Beloved Inspiration, SPEAK. I am here to listen."
Sacred Rebel, I know... Even when the storms come and you stand with few trees around you, your branches will always reach the nutrients you crave. I know, people question your ways and still, you are just approaching enlightened awareness. Don't try to be appropriate. Allow that old bug to fly out of you. I know, your eyes open, your hands reach, your legs stretch, and your heart wonders, " how was this wild breathed into me?" Dearest Sacred Rebel, this burning flame of Truth and passion was ignited within you when the wolves howled your birth into existence. You proclaimed to step on this complex Earth with mismatched shoes, criss crossed tights and a floppy uneven hat stating, "I am born to be Different." Don't stop the wild electricity of creativity that pumps through your being making you a conduit for miracles and synchronicity to drop in and launch your life into a new paradigm eager to be expressed. Sacred Rebel, I know.
I Choose I Choose to live in my heart more I Choose to acknowledge All of me I Choose to cuddle up in the Majesty of my heart and own my thrown I Choose to snuggle into the dark corners of unforgiveness towards myself and love her MORE I Choose to remember my natural worth I Choose to remember my heart bank is always plentiFULL I Choose to find my compass on my heart I Choose to find gains in catching butterfly whispers in my heart I Choose to stay overnight in my heart instead of walking up towards my mind I Choose to unfog the lighthouse's windows in my heart that are calling in what's next I Choose to plant seeds of flowers in my heart and water them with Trust, helping them bloom I Choose to see my heart as Whole. Complete. Open. I Choose to create more space in my heart by breathing out of Her I Choose to listen more to my natural drum I choose to warm myself naturally by touching my heart's fire I Choose to let her burn with Passion, Love, and Desire by sending my breath through the flames, tapping the drum to steady the beats, and telling her "I love you " to ensure she blooms I Choose
Have you yet to visit another planet in our phenomenal galaxy? I have. Well, in my dreams.
A few weeks ago I had the privilege of visiting Saturn on the astral right before I woke up in the morning. Maybe you were there with me?
Darkness surrounded us while we stood outside in a large group admiring the sky's art. We were wowed by how many moons there were, in a variety of phases and were translucent. They were moving across the silent darkness like clouds. I said out loud: “There must be 20 moons! Where am I?”
I woke up and knew this dream had a significant message for me. While I was outside sitting on the Earth eating breakfast, I heard: "You need to look up which planet has 20 moons and you will know where you traveled to!"
It turns out: Saturn has 20 moons and is known as the New Moon King! When I read that I remembered, it was New Moon the morning I dreamed this! Spirit is amazing. In my meditation, my guides told me: "You are the New Moon Mystic Healer Channeler!”
Even though I am not exactly sure what this means, I say Yes to standing in my connection with the Divine!
Are you doing Dream Journaling and asking for guidance? The more we practice these potent medicines the more is revealed.
Speaking of New Moon, Happy New Moon in Gemini/Solar Eclipse~
Doors are opening with a positive chance for change, are you ready to step through?
Lena from The Power Path offers some guidance for this New Moon:
"This is a time of many possibilities on the table, many doors opening, and some closing. It is a good time for a fresh start whether inspired by an intention or forced by a change from the outside.
This moon does come with some mental confusion and a tendency for delusion, deception, and uncertainty. Trust your heart instead of your mind and remember to be vigilant about details and communication as well as being patient with technology and delays as Mercury is still retrograde. If there is tension, use it as energy for progress rather than irritation and frustration. Be open to something new and stay out of resistance to anything unexpected."
As many mystics have said, we are in a time of radical transformation. With this comes radical healing. Call in your guides, guardians, and past loved ones to assist you in your progress and evolution. Merge with their wisdom as they stand in the high vibration of Light, Love, and Truth. Allow your inner child to stand in question and wonder: How can I stand in the belief of blessings and gratitude while challenges circulate around us and see them as reflections of what in me needs to shift and become renewed?
With the eclipse cycle energy being present, our emotions of angst, anger, grief, and self-depreciation or blame are being activated and we are being called to shine a light on them, sit with them, create space, and allow them to transcend.
When in doubt, go outside under the night’s vast magical darkness and talk to God. Voice your challenges, your worries, your stress, your I don’t knows to Spirit and ask for support. Leave your heart open, feel the space around you and stretch. An answer will be delivered to you. Stay in the mystery.
In this 'wash cycle' that we are in, we are being purified and cleansed so that we can return to New Earth, which is at a higher vibration of Love than ever before.
Even though you can’t see me or hear my being, I am with you. Slide down into your gracious heart and feel our connection here. More importantly, feel your centeredness with the Divine. This is YOU.
We are all with each other in this intended circle of life. We chose to be on each other's path and I am so very grateful to have you in my sacred circle.
Look up at the infinite sky, look within your grand landscape, open your arms to possibilities, open your heart for more love, for the new energy is pouring down looking for a vessel to call home and move you to a greater understanding and perspective.
You are a beacon of light and you are a precious part of this evolving world. As you allow your heavy energies to move through you, you will return to your true essence even more, and it's beautiful.
"I've been there before." Said the Twinkle in her eyes as she gazed in awe at the sea of stars gliding on a blanket of stillness The stardust laid on your hat, fingertips, eyelashes, and lips, is not to be washed off, forgotten, or ignored Your brothers and sisters stand above applauding you for your choice and invite you to remember the question: " Who takes the lead in your life?" The ancient wisdom you once had easy access to, quietly laid rest within your soul to now be unlocked, stepped into, spoken, and applied The Rainstorms from above hold the keys to open your cells, awakening the old records to once again have pulse and fire Lightning strikes zap open the channels that run deep to let out the Goddess, the animal, the Earth, the vastness planted in your never-ending Soul This grand space you long to stretch in, travel, explore, and get lost in Is calling you back, to be FOUND
The wind came and blew her open She spoke Not a mystery but a Truth creaky cabinet doors swung open ready to bare the once dusted labels Cracked Windows invited the raw weather to be felt and tasted Ever so gently her heart whispered: Thank you for never leaving me The everchanging wind blew off old weight from her inauthentic identities “I am not here to MAKE friends, I am here to meet myself more and attract those who see me from my center guiding me home back to Love.” The fibers from her words weaved in and out on her back creating new born wings “Stay loyal to you. Stay close to your wholeness like the crow belongs to his landscape “ What is not yours will be rung out of your streams to quench the dry soil beneath you Any uncomfortableness that caused her vocal cords to rattle in Truth rolled through, up and out Pumping in vulnerability she spoke: This is Who I Am. I’m not here to please. I’m here to Breathe Open
Written in the sky, on the spray of the sunset, Surrender was seen In this humbling silence, my body stills, waits, returns to breath and remembers “Surrender”, escapes my next exhale Instead of push, force, restraint, I choose to command my skin to soften, my breath to open, and my heart to drop closer to Earth’s wishes The chilling glaciers within me rumble, adjust, and transform as Surrender slowly melts them away Now into cold rivers awakening my body to unveil the Truth My warming core honors the Truth like the heart needs oxygen-rich blood to pump I Surrender to being my simple, internally quiet Self who listens, waits, feels and responds to this ancient powerful force within and around me What is mine, if missed, will wash back up to me on the ever-moving forgiving shore What is dying within me, I let fall through the minuscule cracks of my bones down into the soft sand under my toes and back to the core of the Earth This natural rhythm of Surrender soothes my old soul to rest, causing my new chorus to find my lungs and be sung Unembarrassed, I Trust, heart wide open, feet rooted, and body dressed in Light I Surrender
Let me Remind You of your Wild.... The internal gardens that bloom in your soul bursting with color and new life, this is YOU The inner rough and wild storms that roll in and out of your veins, this is YOU The crest of a wave that grows in your lungs from outrageous emotions, ready to splash outside of your eyes, this is YOU The rowdy bliss that bounces in your inner playground waiting to burst with noise, this is YOU The Wild woman who howls at the moon, stretches to the stars and wrestles with the leaves, this is YOU You belong to the Wild and She belongs to YOU For without Her, your soul tank is empty and your natural cycle is not yet complete Say hello to your Inner Wild, Cheers to the Expressive Genesis who electrifies your Whole Self into Being
Much gratitude to Anthony Schumann who created this magnificent piece of art out of plastic jars and picked me to model it in the Wearable Art Show!
Even with all this heaviness You're still Growing Where there's concrete, a determined blade of grass still finds its peak to the Light Inside a tightly bound still chrysalis Grows a vibrant in life and color Butterfly Preparing to take flight Drop the fight and spread your wings The Earth is begging you:"Come Alive" "Uncover the artistry of the great Universal Creator who breathes Life within You" Honor the sacredness of the ringing out what no longer serves your True Colors Explore the untouched, ignored, missed canvas without restraint Anchor down into the rivers of unspoken Truths bedding in your hips Slapping against the currents of life Telling you..."Now is the time to release" Release the dams that held you safe Release the cocoon that morphed you into your Great Transformation Stand, Great Awakener with your wings out spread, Owning what is yours And leaving all the rest into the great abyss of what was.....
I'd like to share a piece of the pie I have been eating that is full of nutritious ingredients from several spiritual teachers around me and within me: I invite you to chew slowly and spit out what doesn't resonate with you. It is a bit of a messy pie: In December 2019 I heard: 2020's vibrational focus is: L O V E The container we each are being offered as a collective is to LOVE ourselves deeper, more rich and to accept the invitation to become partnered, if not already, with a sincere LOVE partnership "No more settling in relationships will be comfortable. It is about BIG REAL love now." Today, I still fully believe: this year is in the radio frequency of LOVE In January 2020 I heard: the numerology of 2020 is 4 which means: it's a masculine number that means things taking shape...manifesting....landing into our reality What we have been praying for over the years, decades, moments absolutely will have support to become our reality in 2020 Today, I still fully believe the truth of what we deep down desire is held in support to manifest. Last week in astrology, the placing of the planets suggested: major restructuring of finances, government and business will take place The tower is crumbling down that no longer serves us The news reflected this astrology forecast to be true and it is within us to choose how we respond As we are being asked/required to separate ourselves from loved ones, we are still given a choice: Will you allow this LOVE to grow in your heart? We are being called to step into higher consciousness of tossing out plans and getting closer to our body, living in the moment Ask your body in each moment-what makes you EXPAND what makes you CONTRACT? Say Yes to what makes you expand-for the HEALTH of it Your body always knows Clear out the noise the chatter -by staying close to the body Move shake breathe let loose Wring out the OLD by LAUGHING from the depths of your belly until water pours out of your eyes Remember LOVE Run FAITH and TRUST through out the body Resisting change is futile Plant your new garden Pour sweet honey in the new being born The cold air arising from the depths is New Earth's breath as a cleanse As we face change pour beauty, exercise your pure intent Choose stillness within SLOW DOWN the noise within the chatter The slowing down of our planet unmuted the birds who were suffocated by the noise pollution and are now our natural choir The slowing down of our planet welcomed higher vibration to swim into the city water ways -Dolphins We are being asked to mirror the natural brilliance of coral reefs---quiet complexity We are complex inside and are now being called to be quiet on the outside Grab for what you LOVE to boost your immunity: Food- what does your body LOVE, expand for? Grab it People-who does your body LOVE, expand for? Call them Heart truth: the more FULL your heart is of LOVE the stronger your immunity is Weave Stillness within Hold off on making a big decision until Stillness is felt To fall more in love with yourself: purge the thought viruses that weaken you We are shoving more perishable foods and toilet paper into our cabinets, how about we ALSO take inventory of the stale, old, non immunity boosting programs/thoughts/beliefs within Boost Self-Love Use this open-feels like forever time- to get close with the thought viruses within and put them in the DIRT Get Naked The Earth our Mother, the DIVINE is asking us to get naked, undress the old structures, belief systems, stories, relationships that weigh us down making us feel weighted and unable to carry our powerful and beautiful life purposes forward to our people Get Wild Where we are given permission to play -stretch-heal- connect -is ---WILD NATURE Spring Cleaning SURRENDER Dark deep emotions are getting stirred up and spilling out. OUT is where they need to be Breathe them OUT, move them OUT, make love to them OUT, howl them OUT Truth Clarity Advancement Stretch We are called to stretch ourselves as a human species to advance ourselves into new ways that bring us together, make us stronger, more resilient, and closer to our hearts where our immunity becomes RICH New ways have been knocking at our doors and now the Earth, Source is ready to show you--I've heard your prayers for a more clean Earth, more authentic relationships, more intelligence, more listening, coming together, and during this time, we are being shown we were heard LOVE Our eyes, our hands, and our bodies are really getting familiar and close to our home surroundings --do you LOVE what is around? Take inventory of what is in your cabinets, your drawers, on your walls, across your body in your bed. Does it all uplift you? Who in my circle do I feel closer to the DIVINE when I'm near them? Your daily routines have been slowed down and now you can assess who those people are. REACH out to them. Now you have time for the phone call instead of a text Surrender Run FAITH and TRUST up and down your legs, arms and torso Stay close to your body as your guide Accept what is to lessen the grip, you don't have to like what's going on, to create peace and space ..simply accept what is for the bigger plan to be revealed for this is the year we are offered the opportunity to be handed over our deepest prayers when our hands are open and full of FAITH AND TRUST Wash away tightness, resistance, disbelief Open your palms to be less tight Reach for what you LOVE what brings you joy Just keep swimming-last night i dreamed I was swimming Just keep singing-last night I dreamed I was singing on a stage HAPPY BIRTDAY!--keep celebrating--last night i dreamed of Gus Gus mouse from Cinderella All you needed to know you learned in Kindergarten--a few nights ago I went back to Kindergarten "Be kind to everyone, wash your hands, say please and thank you, express your feelings in a gentle way. We're all in this grade together....we're going to GRADUATE." 👩🎓👨🎓👩🎓
It is time to drip, drink, devour all of your true element Stand more Alive in what naturally grows your inner landscape Allow your eyes to swell up with the salt from the sea you once called home Choose to Love instead of leave this true element of YOU You crave to be wet in life's liquid where new growth is inevitable When you live here, each new exhale follows the inhale in fullness Gaze at the seaweed in your hands ripened with untold stories ready to be chorused with a microphone The wetness dripping like dew on a spring morning from your skin tickles awake your cells: "I am your nutrients, scoop your cup in me for some more." .